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1. When I was a kid picturing the future, I would see my home like this: Always just the interior-- a single room. With a mattress on the floor so I could sleep, a TV in the corner because I loved television, a stack of books right over there because I loved reading, and a lamp so I could write.
All my life all I ever wanted to do was write.
This could be interpreted as a lack of ambition, and yes, I don’t have the instincts that drive other men to accumulate wealth, but I don’t think I lacked ambition. I believe I just had higher ambitions than that.
You guys want to make money. I wanted to make history.

So I wrote the novel and clicked save and, now that it is all over, I find myself quite lost, quite shell-shocked, like I have been in that single room with the mattress on the floor and the books in the corner for all these years and, finally stepping out into the bright sunlight, I am blinded and confused because there is an entire world around me that I can’t adjust to. I know how it works: I have watched it and written about it, I just am not sure how to work it.

That is item one. That I am pretty much faking it all.

2. I am a colossal underachiever. I always come up short. I have been very fortunate, very blessed. Much has been given to me. You don’t realise it because you have no way of knowing just how much.
But I do, and that is how I know that what I call my achievements are smaller than they could be. If he had my gifts, he would have made a lot more of them than I ever did. Sometimes I think I have a fear of success and I am too comfortable with the idea of its opposite, and that is what cripples me. Of all the gifts, the one thing I was never granted was the will. I am all doubt, all self-second-guess, no faith.

That is item two: In spite of everything, when it comes down to it, I am a loser.

3. I am a Shakespeare junkie. In fact, just to amuse myself, I often sneak obscure quotes into my articles, and even posts, just for the hell of it.

4. I believe that government is the opposite of freedom; I am pro-choice, pro-gay marriage, believe fervently in free speech and free press and am opposed to the death penalty. I used to carry newspapers to school when I was in s6. Quiz me on Greek mythology and you will be surprised. I used to spend hours arguing about the nature of truth, the meaning of life, destiny, Africa and time with Robert.

5. John Lee Hooker, BB King, Buddy Guy, Stevie Ray Vaughan, Kid Jonny Lang, Bruce Springsteeeeeeeen, Counting Crows, Dave Matthews Band, Dire Straits, Sting, Miles Davis, John Coltrane, Duke Ellington, Diana Washington, pretty much all forms of jazz except smooth and Latin… all that good shit. I love it to death. But at heart I will always be a hip hop head. I just don’t like to say it in public because people will think I like Yin Yang Twins and those other MTV clowns.

I love my music. You don’t even understand how much music moves me.


That’s all I am going to say now.

I would like to tag Iwaya, Ish,and Scotchbiscuits .